just read a post on reddit (can't believe i just said that) by a man whose wife committed suicide because she was depressed

there were heaps more posts by others about how suicide affected them

sigh

as much as i'm drawn to that
tempted to just stop the pain once and for all
i can't do that to my parents
mama and abah who have done everything for me
who continue to love me unconditionally despite all my rebellious ways

i guess i just have to continue
carry on
i just don't know how to feel anymore
nothing really excites me anymore
nothing really makes me happy, brings me joy
just have to carry on in this haze