therapy has begun - sorta
i have to come to terms with sooo many things
- some are going ok, some still hurt - a lot

good thing i can focus on work - or rather - i need to focus on work

the worse thing out of everything - losing my best friend
it is sad that she can't understand or accept that i can't do some things
but i understand she has a very full plate on her hands and i wish her nothing but happiness

i miss certain things, certain routines
but in the end, i know head trumps heart
my heart is rubbish anyway

once again,
in the end it is every man for himself
if i don't look out for me, who else will?