nak bleh tak?

i wanna be 40kgs again..

but WITHOUT the amenorrhea...

ok laa...seems drastic....

i'd be happy with 45kgs...

hmmmm.....

definitely need to do that EuroTrip next year...

cos then if my friends wont do it for me this year,

i'm gonna have to try and get me some of those less-than-legal diet pills...

yes, i am aware that i may have hepatotoxicity due to the pills...but hey, the liver regenerates, no?

and yes, rapid weight loss and gain could lead to cholelithiasis....

i can avoid that cant it?

hmmmm....

No, it is NOT weird being his HO

even though the last time we met,

he gave me a hickie

After all, it is only for 2 weeks...

and im SOOO over him...:)

detox...

its been 4 days since i last laid eyes on R2

last saw him 1.30am sat mane...

today is the first day i've not texted him...

ok...detox starting off on a good start?

- obviously im secretly wishing he'd text me :) -

*sigh*

so the universe has played a joke on me...

i've just been moved from the "perfect R" - Ramez -

and on to the "other R" - Roberto -

LOL

i finally got me a proper coat!!!!

after 3 years of wanting one....i decided on this beauty! :):)

almost...

Almost got him out to town last night...

he seemed keen in the mane...

then when nobody heard nothing about any end-of-run plans...he didn't seem too keen no more..

i tried..but i wouldn't blame him....

i'd do the same if i were him...

so close...yet so far....

this week in retrospect....

Tuesday - scrubbed with Mr Martin (as previously blogged)...

Thursday -

• Mr Harman knows my name
• Mr Harman was praising me! - didnt have any issues!
• Mr Harman said he's give me a reference should I need it for SET applications!!!! :):)
• long day ecc....BUT GOT TO DO IT WITH RAMEZ!!!! :):):)

Friday -

• decent pawr.....
• got out of my long day!!!!! :):):)
• dinner at peter's
• out to ponsonby after with the blondes and ramez and vincent...
• WENT NEXT DOOR WITH RAMEZ TO DANCE!!! - they were playing an awesome mix of old-school hiphop/r&b!!!
• sadly, we werent dancing with each other.....but he was sooo delish! :):)
• we didnt hug goodbye though....=( why didn't i do that!!!!! i'll forever regret that moment...:(

gonna miss the boys....='(

maybe it's good.....i may now be able to get over ramez.....it's gonna be worse than the roberto debacle.....=(

*sobsobsob*

team love!

the drama this week was me trying very hard to swap out of my friday ward calls so i can go to peter's team end-of-run do at his house...

i absolutely LOVE my team!!!

they were all rooting for me to swap out of it!

peter even quietly suggested i "called in sick" - which i obviously cant, cos i cant dump on the other HO like that...

vincent was also apparently asking around yesterday - if anyone wanted to do it (as expected, no takers)...

so today, even libby - the cow who always has an alterior motive - was trying to help out...in fact, it was she who suggested i ask hank!

and lo-and-behold....HANK agreed!!!!

sooo.....after post-acute friday, i'll hold the pager till he gets to nsh...

THEN I JOIN MY TEAM AT PETER's HOUSE!!!!

*ramez fist-bumped me when i told him*

peter was also stoked....

im sooo honoured that my team really likes me and wants me there....:):)

scrubbed!

guess what i got to do today....

mr martin wanted me to scrub in on the 2nd skin case...

so i got to use the dermatome (YAY!) for an SSG...

then prepped it and helped with the SSG itself...

and then...

did a punch on the lip...and stitched it up...:):)

boss was definitely in a good mood today!!! AND praised us...:) he knew i did the carbunkle excision the other day...

BOOM!!! :):)

AND.....

he apparently praised me and called me "dedicated" following my arvo shift before my nites..

SCORE!!! :):)