so last thursday i brilliantly decided to do a 16-hr shift...

locum the 4-10pm ecc admits then on to my final nite shift from10pm-8am....:)

all this after only 4 hours sleep.....smart move ey? :)

i thought it was gonna be awesome having garth aka mcSteamy! as the senior reg on...

as luck would have it he swapped shifts...and i had ramez as the senior!

uber awesome!!!! :):)

AND.....as if that wasn't awesome enough....

i started by assisting in the lap appendix - got to hold the camera for him and close...:)

AND....i did my very own carbuncle excision!!!!

score!!!

BOOM!!! :):)

perfect.....but there's a catch obviously

i am severely in-like with the perfect guy...

and i do mean PERFECT!

• brilliant sense of humour! (cos we knw that's oh-so-very important to me)
• good-looking
• hot bod - as far as i can guess from the scrubs
• humble, unassuming, non-judgmental
• sensitive
• great music taste!
• SURGEON - well, almost there - i mean, he's in set4 now...with exams next year

off course there's a catch to this perfect dude...

HE'S IN A COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP!

yup, story of my life....=(

must.lose.weight!!!!!

in effort to heal, im coming to the conclusion that it's good that he and i did NOT hook up...

i AM worth more...and i deserve better!

**ok....now jz gotta put this on replay and truly believe this...and get over the bruised ego**

hmmm.......i'd rather not go back to my ano days....

where can i find me some diet pills that work..?

there is something seriously wrong with this picture...
i am quite often surrounded by people....
good people, people im proud to call mi amigos...
yet....im empty...
i feel soo cold and alone...
the smiles are fake....i knw they are for they don't reach my eyes...

i constantly wanna crawl into a ball, get into the foetal position and cry...
i wanna grab tht scalpel i stare at everyday and cut the pain away...

it has to be super odd when the songs i identify most with right now are:
1) blink 182's adams song
2) pixies's i bleed

as if it'll make much difference if im here of not...
i jz wish my parents would understand tht its NOT their fault....

i want....

career options:

• surgical: ORLHNS
• medical: gastroenterologist (???)

love:

• danny zucko who swims, loves music and gives me chocolate and mixtapes!

i know i sound like im stuck in the 90s, but i really dig the whole mixtape/mix-cd scene...im quite sure i'd melt....:):)

best songs about love....

im gonna start listing what i think are the best love songs written:

• patti smith (+ springsteen) - because the night
• bryan adams - have you ever really loved a woman
• bon jovi - always
• elvis - can't help falling in love with you
• beatles - love
• bruno mars - just the way you are
• the cure/311/adele - love song

trivia....

how did one kid who hated getting his face wet and another who was allergic to chlorine end up becoming 2 of the greatest champions??

repertoire

music i plan on exploring....

• smashing pumpkins
• hole - i already have 1 cd which i love...
• david bowie's ziggy stardust
• the soundtrack to Singles
• lupe fiasco
• i am giant