omg, my brain hurts!

music
chocolate
laughter

the only things that can truly soothe the soul....
and not necessarily in that order! :)

yay!!!!!
i'm finally moving out!!!!
no more oestrogen overload!!!! :)
so it'll just be me, myself and i....:)

holy.fucking.hell!!!

i woke up with a start waaay too early this morning (it was 8am on a sunday!) and i heard a deep male voice....
the first thought that came to mind was - abah?
i dunno why....and then i replayed yesterday in my head and in slow-motion, the layout of my apartment started forming in my head...
it was then that i realized that i wasn't in tmn tun....but here in auckland...
disappointed that i wasn't home with abah and mama...i forced myself back to sleep..

weird.....

the makings of a grand day...:)

• a good cuppa to start the morning - today it is a brazilian blend...:)
• chocolate - duh!
• my daily fix of anderson cooper......=)
• great music

and, voila! a good day! =)

over the past week or so, i've been reading about the sudden death of stephen gately...
listening to the autopsy report, he died secondary to pulmonary oedema...and they queried an unknown cardiac cause - so my immediate assumption for a 33y/o previously fit and healthy man dying of a cardiac cause - ?cardiomyopathy - this theory somewhat supported by revelation that there was a hereditary cardiac thing on his dad's side...

anyway, that's beside the point....

the point being, just minutes ago i was reading about his memorial service and the very touching eulogies from his friends and family...

and that got me pondering and reflecting inwardly...

when i die, will there be anything said about me?
will i be at the receiving end of a moving eulogy?
will there be anyone who would stand up and give a spiel about how i touched their lives?, how my life made a difference?
* ok, a eulogy by mama & abah doesn't count - they're parents! *

would i be remembered, and would it be in a good way?

a hero's birthday...:)

Dear Ian,

HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY!!!

love, nana....:)

i am officially employed!!! :)

it took 2 weeks longer than it should have, but alhamdulillah, it has all panned out...:)

in all honesty, there are heaps of things to complain about where i'll be working at next year...
BUT as we all know, beggars can't be choosers! :)

so yeah, i think the relief of being employed trumps the negative points....:)

p/s: i can now buy the things i want!!! :)

i can't believe there's only 6 weeks left!
i can't imagine what it'll be like...
it's been 7 years since graduating high school...

am i ready to face the real world?
am i ready for my signature to actually mean something?
am i ready to take responsibility for someone else's well-being?

it's finally the moment we've been waiting for...
but it is also the moment i've been dreading...
i AM scared...
no, i AM terrified of what all this means...

will i make it out alive?