Sunday, February 17, 2013

i don't think i have ever been this sad

Sunday, December 16, 2012

still so much pain
hurt
anger


and yet, for the first time
i cannot cry it out
i've run out of tears
a fucking miracle!

Friday, November 30, 2012

someone i can share my day with
to share the good and fun stuff
and the horrible, annoying stuff

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

new beginning: starts NOW!

Monday, November 12, 2012

reminder:

if he cannot love you and respect you and trust you
then he is not worth pursuing anymore
they say:
it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all

BULL-fucking-SHIT!

i never want to do this again
i'd rather not know it than to be in so much pain
why do i always fall for men who will never fall for me?
of realize too late how i feel?

so no
better not to fall then have to pick up the shattered heart again
so angry
so very very angry
yay! back to theatre tomorrow! :)
miss operating- even if it's just 2nd assist

and...
i can get my supply...
stock up on a few 15-blades and some steri-strips

keep them handy..
just in case shit hits the fan and it becomes too painful again
note to self:
must not cut

Sunday, November 11, 2012

i want someone i can wake up next to and smile
i want someone to have coffee with
i want someone i can explore all these cool cafes with
i want someone i can share my day with
i want someone to make coffee for
i want someone i can rock out with at a gig
i want someone i can watch tv and movies with


i thought i had this someone
sadly, i threw it away
now i don't think this someone exists anymore